Throw back Thursday Blog

I decided to do a throw back Thursday blog day.  I have been thinking a lot about where we were as a family 6 years ago today.  One of the hardest things as a parent is to watch your child go through something that you can't even begin to understand.  Hayden was so sick and we all thought that it was viral.  Then it landed us at CHOA in the middle of the night...to find out that she had an abscess in her head.  Talk about hearing something that you never wanted to hear!  Talk about going numb!  Talk about tears streaming down your face and wondering how the hell am I going to fix this.  Because as a parent you are always trying to fix every thing.  I know some things you can't but you still try because you can't stand for your children to hurt or be sick or be scared.  I just remember standing there and in my mind as her Mommy, I knew that she was going to be okay.  I know you think I am crazy but I did.  I just did and I am so very glad that I was right!  I remember holding her little bitty hand and knowing that she had to be in pain and wondering what in the hell was going on, but she never acted like it, she was still the same sweet girl that she is today.  Words cannot describe how grateful we are to all the nurses and doctors that helped us, but as of today my hero is Dr. Wrubel.  He saved my baby girls life and he was such a caring, amazing surgeon.  I still think about going to his office and watching all the people there.  I am going to send him a picture of her after making her triple play in Softball to hang on his wall in his office.  I wonder does he remember us, but then I know that he does because who could forget such an angel and well the fact that I was 9 months pregnant too.  Which brings me to my next little miracle and blessing. 

On 9/2/08, Mark and I left Hayden at CHOA with Mimi to go and have our 2nd sweet girl....Gracie Leigh.  She was the most patient baby in the whole wide world.   I remember my doctors telling me that I had more mind of matter than anyone they knew.  They just couldn't believe that she waited until her due date to be born.  They were convinced that she would be at least 2 weeks early but I kept telling them that she had to wait until Hayden was home.   Hayden did get to come home before the 2nd of September but ended up at the hospital again on Sept. 1st from an allergic reaction to the medicine she was receiving.  When we walked out of Hayden's room that morning all the nurses were clapping and saying congratulations and all did was stand there and cry!  As a Mommy, how are you supposed to leave your sick baby at one hospital and drive 45 minutes away to another hospital for your other baby.  Talk about having you heart in two different places.  However, it all worked out and we made it through the hardest, toughest thing ever together and as a family.  We have such wonderful family members that all helped in every way possible and I don't know what we would have done without them. 

Gracie was such an easy delivery, which was great considering every thing else.  The best thing was is that she came into the world smiling.  She is still my smiling baby, always happy.  She was such a good, quiet and loving baby.  She loved to sit in my lap with her big sister. 

September 4, 2008 both of my girl got released from two different hospitals to come home.  Hayden was so excited about meeting Gracie, and then she had to wait.  Mimi and Pop brought Hayden home because Mark was scared to leave Gracie and I at home alone.  Hayden was so tired, confused and had been through so much that she wouldn't even come to me at first.  It totally broke my heart.  I just wondered if she thought I left her because I wasn't there with her like everyone else was.  Then one of my most favorite memories of all times happened.  She looked over in the swing and saw for the very first time her little sister.  She immediately smiled and asked if that was Gracie.  Mark and I said yes and she wanted to hold her.  We propped up pillows and put them both on the couch.  I love this picture for so many reasons.  Even now when I think I am having the worst day possible I think back to these things.  Six years later I still cry because I am so grateful and blessed that I have two wonderful, amazing and healthy girls....and now I even have a wonderful, amazing and healthy boy to go with our family.  We are so very blessed!